Bullied For Been Different
When I was a kid I behave a little girlish. The way I talked, walked or act to certain situation is more girlish. With that comes the bullying. As I've went a boy's school where there's is no girls at all , so every student is a boy, to them my behavior is girlish. I've been bullied for that my entire school life I really hated my school and I didn't have much friends either. Because of that I tried to change the way I behavior in to more manly way as possible. I have manage to hide it some how! by not talking and getting less involved in things.
My worst bullying moment at school is to this day is when a boy in my class state the fact! (yes it was like a scientist who is proving a theory in front of other scientists) that I don't have any genitalia at all. I don't know the right word in English for that but he tried to prove that I'm a eunuch (neuter). yes he said that I'm not a man or woman just base on the way I behave. I still remember is his face he was so proud prove that I'm neither a man nor a women . His name was Dilshan as I remember. While I was embedded and confused myself; he state that it is obvious that I in fact a neuter because my behavior is girlish .
By the time I came to know who I am and started to live with this secret I was confused myself why am I like this why can't I be more like them. Even my family won't me to be like others they say don't do that,this or be more manly for better or worse with the that help I have mastered to be as they want me to be.
With that horrible school life I grow up and become an adult. when people start to talked behind your back, they won't tell it to your face but they know, is he??! well there's is no escape for me. I started hide from these, by not talking or getting less involved in the society as much as I can.
This is it! Tell me what you think in the comments please! it would really help! thank for reading.
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