Out with the Secret
I live in Sri Lanka, a small island in Indian ocean. I'm a Buddhist but I'm not that much of religious person, I do believe in Karma and if you do good deeds good things will happen to you and if you do bad deeds bad things will happen to you but I'm stating to doubt that too. I'm 23 years old to this year. I'm a web developer or trying to be! struggling with every choice I make and regretting the choice I made so far hopping this one won't be one of them.
So! when I was 18 I came to realize that I don't like men more than women sexually. I've decided that I shouldn't live with this secret of ever. even so I can't tell any one about it. so this is the only way I going to came out of the closet. yes I'm gay! this is about my story of living a secret for the rest of my life.
The culture that I live in do not talk about homosexuality or any sex education what so ever. So when I start to like men I was really confusing because every one around me like women. Some how I gain access to the internet and I started reaching by that I meant searching for porn on men 😉. I came across the word GAY. So I stared searching from that world and there are people like me all around the world and people are talking about it.More and more I search I came to know that it's not a bad thing and it's ok to be drawn to a person in you sex.
How ever the concept of being gay is not talked in my country or culture because of their lack of knowledge in sexuality. I can't come out to my parents because for sure I know they would not understand even if they did I can't have relationship because it's not social acceptable in my culture. I'm on my own! And it's much easier to live with secret than to go through with all that. So this is how I start living with a secret. I've got so much story that I like to share so I will post them and please let me know about what you think in comments it's would be a great help to me to know that there are people like me out there and I'm not alone!
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